Today was bad.
When it is this bad, I get a strange temptation to post on social media that I am miserable and see if anyone bites.
I know this temptation is pointless.
The sad fact is most people don’t care, they have their own battles and burdens to shoulder and they don’t like getting forced into a corner of let’s all feel sorry for Rachael.
It would be like standing up in a room full of mostly strangers and saying, “I’m sad, give me a hug.”
Not too many people going to feel comfortable with that one.
Do they hug you just so they do not look like a jerk, ignore you and refuse to make eye-contact, or do they resent you for being so needy?
None of the options are very appealing ones.
Now ,if I had made some good friends ,then I could go to them, but I have isolated myself for many years and I don’t have many I can turn to.
This is not said to gain sympathy, it is merely a fact.
So, needless to say, I am not going to announce anytime soon on Facebook or Twitter that I am depressed, my intellect will win over my emotions.
I will however write about it here on my blog, it helps me think things out, I have convinced myself this is different from seeking sympathy and I truly believe it is, but maybe I am fooling myself.
So, whatever the point of this post was, here it is.