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Once I thought about how to please you.
You took advantage, you made me feel worthless.
So many days spent alone.
Aching for your touch
Bewildered by your refusal.
You chased shadows.
I ate my heart out wondering…
Wondering just when I would be good enough?
How I could compete with what you compared me to?
Now, you realize what you lost.
And how am I suppose to feel?
Grateful? I cannot.
Like two strangers we have become…
But, perhaps it has always been that way?
Your kisses leave me cold.
Ironic that the fire in your eyes once burned in mine.
All that has died and I live a lie.
I cannot return a love I do not feel.


What Do You Say?

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What do you say when a marriage ends?

I’m sorry, I tried.

How do you pick up the pieces ?

Sweep them all under the rug?

You know in your heart it is better.

But, the mind likes to play its tricks.

You think maybe one more time and you can fix it.

But, illusions ,always, must come to an end.



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It is the sameness that drives me mad

The same day repeated that never varies

The persistent numbness that is my existence

Until feelings burst free leaving me in despair

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 I did not ask for this, it isn’t what I wanted

So many times I try to break free from my past

A never-ending nightmare that in my head replays

No matter how many times I try to escape it.

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Don’t give me any of your dime store advice

If I could have chosen, don’t you think I would have?

I didn’t ask for the cards that have been dealt me

Your lack of compassion does nothing to save me

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 If gazing at the sunset; contemplating life

Was enough to change me, I’d never stop

If I could think those positive thoughts

Then I would do so all day long

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 Just because someone does not comprehend

Does not mean that it does not exist

So, please stop talking like you know

Because, you do not understand at all.

Locked within my head.

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I’m locked within my head
Lost there
Abandoned by the reason I once held so high
I can think of nothing else
Pain lives there
Raw, unrelenting; driving me toward madness
Brooding in the dark
Alone there
I cannot get away from this solitary asceticism
Struggling no longer
Stuck there
Unable to free myself, no longer wanting to
Locked within my head
Lost there
In pain