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Heart of glass mistaken for stone
You’ll never know how much it hurt
Rejected, abandoned, left with scares
I kept it all inside

The years have been too much
The journey full of tears
Heartaches, neglect, abuse
I survived; that’s all

Warrior for others rights
I cannot seem to defend my own
Bleeding inward most days
I hide it all from view

Silence mistaken for strength
The tears no longer come
A hole left where a soul use to be
I am numb that’s all

In Misery We Roam

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In musty abandoned halls we roam

Reliving the hell we brought on ourselves

Chained by past deeds too awful to tell

Trapped here and denied eternal peace

We roam these halls ,most days, alone

With eyes that stare, but cannot see the light

As we wail out our misery in silence

We can no longer touch the things we love

We can only be tortured by their ever-present memories

And, although, sometimes, in company we may wander

We can only pass each other ,but are denied all recognition

Then our cries turn into shrieks as we damn our fate

To be granted eternal life to live in misery

Walk Away

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If I walked away

Would it really matter?

Things would go on as always

Any loss felt would be short lived

I grow tired of the game

The inconsistency of you

And so, now I shall bow out

And bid you a last adieu

No reason for your absence

You choose to stay away

Only returning at your leisure

I no longer wish to wait

I only pause a moment

And think of all that’s been

I stop to gather courage

And, then silently walk away





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Descending into the catacombs
We face the death of something once alive
Something that lived and breathed
That walked in the sun and was not afraid
But that was before and this is now

It was a slow march
That led us to our fate
We did not know
We could not see
To refuse the light of truth
Is to refuse a life worth living

We hid in dark caves of our fears
Shunned what could have been
Refused to compromise
Refused to forgive
And descended into hell

The Funeral


Since I have stopped writing on my silly blog I thought I would dedicate some more time to this one.

Here is a short story I wrote; hope you enjoy it.

The Funeral

“Not goin’,” she said simply.

Nobody ever argued with mamma and daddy didn’t even then, though you could see the concern in his eyes.

Another little sister had been born, took a look at her surroundins’ set out a wail, and as if she was aware of the misery that would accompany such a place as this, promptly gasped her last breath and gave up the ghost.

The doctor had come too late and there was whispered talk among the neighbor women, who had come on over to help, that he probably could have done no good had he been there, anyhow.

She had come fast that baby, eager, it seemed, to see where she had landed.

And just as eager to leave the misery behind and seek out her heavenly reward rather than remain in such a place as this.

She lived exactly 33 minutes 10 seconds, but I reckon only God and the angles had kept the time.

Momma weak from hunger, fatigue, overwork had collapsed and slept 6 hours before she was conscious enough to realize what had happened.

Daddy had come home 8 hours later smelling of the moonshine he brewed up in the mountains and was obliged to taste and having tasting it for quality was apt to drink too much of it.

He looked at his weeping wife, dead daughter, the rest of us eight hungry children and without saying a word turned around and vomited all over the floor.

The neighborhood women were disgusted and not afraid to tell Henry James Jr. just what they were thinkin’ of him.

He ignored them and sat beside his wife; his head bowed down like a little boy in trouble, and wept without apology.

The ladies cleaned up the vomit and split us kids up among the neighbor ladies nearest to our place.

I got stuck with fat Mrs. Wilkins and my little pesky brother Able, who was 6 years my junior.

We were fed. I had to admit the vegetable soup and day old bread seemed like a feast, none of us had ate since yesterday mornin’ and that was only a piece of corn-pone and some fatback the size of a postage stamp.

I wondered how my other siblings had fared.

Isaac, Mary, and Rebeca had ended up with Mrs. Grower the wife of dad’s partner in crime Mac.

Adam, Rachel, and Ruth had ended up with Mrs. McMillan the widow.

And, I, Sarah ended up with Able and fat Mrs. Wilkins whose husband was a traveling hawker, almost always away from home, but he sent checks regular like.

Although, it was, in reality not very much money, she was by far the wealthiest of her neighbors for miles around.

She was thrifty and she could sew, helpin’ her meager income out a bit by sellin’ her fancy work to the general store and such.

She had chickens and a garden and so she managed fairly well.

Had she known the children were a starvin’ she’d have brought them charity baskets long ago.

But she knew that the Haley clan were always proud and foolish.

Rather starve than eat, if eatin’ meant they had to be a beggin’ off their neighbors.

She wasn’t too proud to say these things out loud as she fussed in her kitchen and fed us, the two temporary orphans.

Too hungry and tired to argue we had gulped our food down and didn’t say much.

We went to bed early, exhausted both from the events of the day and the worry.

Grown-ups like to say kids are carefree and happy through any set of circumstances, perhaps that is a comfort to them when they can’t provide the necessities of life, but it just ain’t so.

We slept long and when we awoke from our makeshift beds the sun was pokin’ out.

Mrs. Wilkins had apologized for havin’ us sleep on the floor with only blankets.

We just kinda stared at her, this is the only ‘bed’ we had ever known and we usually doubled up to share the blankets, but we told her none of this.

Poverty has its own shame and we did not want this woman thinkin’ any worse of us than she already did.

We had a breakfast of pancakes and syrup, rare treats in our world, gulped them down so fast, that the woman thought we were animals and accused us of havin’ been taught no manners at all.

I bristled inside, turning bright red with shame, had I not been taught from the time I could sit at the table to not gulp my food, sit up straight, and mind my manners?

My mother had dignity despite the poverty and hardships she endured and I had shamed her.

I hung my head and whispered, “Sorry, ma’am.”

She regarded me a minute and then unexpectedly said, “You’re just hungry and that is not a sin, I am just cross at times and forget about children and their ways, you see I never had any of my own”

I had no idea how to react to that; grown-ups did not apologize nor explain things to children.

She probably did not know since she never had any, I reckoned.

She said that we could go see Momma and Daddy today and that the other children would be there, too.

We would be headed over in about an hour or such.

I could smell somethin’ tasty comin’ from her oven and as much as I wanted to go home, I am ashamed to admit; I wanted that ham and baked beans she was cookin’ more.

Who knows what we’d find at home?

The hour came and to our surprise the woman took the ham and the beans out of the oven, put their proper lids on and I was made to tote the ham and she was fixin’ to tote the beans.

I realized then we were gettin’ charity and wondered how that would sit with Daddy?

When the relief lady came trying to persuade him to take the charity the government was offerin’ he chased her out.

Would he do that with Mrs. Wilkins, now?

I was even more surprised when we got to the house, it weren’t only Mrs. Wilkins toting in food.

All the ladies had brought somethin’ even if was just a sleeve of soda crackers and homemade jam.

Instead of anger, Daddy thanked everybody and asks them in to sit awhile.

While we all ate I could hear the grown-ups ask when the baby was to be buried.

The reverend Peterson was there and he spoke up saying it was set for tomorrow mornin’.

That is when Momma spoke up and declared that she ‘wasn’t goin’.

The ladies tried to reason with her and the reverend had a hushed talk with her in the corner, but it did not do a lick of good.

When all the people piled out, we were left with our folks, the reverend and his wife (who were stayin’ the night) and our dead sister who had no name.

To my surprise all the leftover food was put away into our cupboards and ice-box.

The next morin’, we piled into Daddy’s wagon, without Momma or our littlest brother, Isaac, who was only two.

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None of us kids had ever been to a funeral before, so nothing could have prepared us.

We shivered in the sunlight and fidgeted as the reverend gave a long winded sermon that sounded more like a scoldin’.

Then they put the cardboard box,  which contained the little sister without a name, into a deep dark hole.

Deject, angry, and tired we piled into the wagon and on to home.


Momma was there in the doorway when we returned

and for the first time since the baby died, she seemed to see us.

She kissed each one of us as we entered.

We all gathered around the table for more dishes made from the neighbors’ generosity, hungry more for explanations than for food, but knowing better than to ask for any.

And, so life went on just like that with no explain’ at all.



Another Musician Exits the Stage.

Another musician has passed.

I must acknowledge that he was a part of my growing up years.

The sheer number of the work he produced would have been hard to miss.

And now I have another admission, I wasn’t a fan.

He had a wonderful voice and was a talented musician.

I just did not care much for his style, I guess you could say.

Like Michael Jackson, who was an excellent performer, it just wasn’t my cup of tea.

I could jump on the bandwagon and say I actually loved his music  all the time, but that, to me, would be the ultimate in disrespect.

I am sorry for his family and his friends who will miss him.

For his fans he was a light that went out way to soon.

We only knew him from his work; his friends and family will mourn the man and the rest of the world the artist.

Whichever group one falls into, we have to admit he made an impact and that is no small accomplishment.

Feel free to share your thoughts if you were a fan.