I have been running out of blog ideas so I signed up for daily prompts from WordPress.
I am a free spirit and cannot see myself doing this every day.
From time to time I will use the daily prompt to get over these slumps of writer’s block.
Today’s prompt was misstep.
All my life
Even though I am old
Has seemed like a dress rehearsal
I sit in the shadows and watch
Other people live out their dreams
I politely clap and cheer them on
Then I retire once again
Feeling more alone than before
What is the key to being happy?
I never found it, I guess
When I look back I see me as one
Who always sidestep responsibility
For her own life
Depending on others way too much
I wish I could recall that first misstep
That snowballed into passiveness
Acceptance of a mediocre life
And goes against my passionate nature
I hate to leave this on such a bummer note. I know that I am changing and can change. I do still struggle with self image and depression. But, every single day I get up and try again. I know there is hope for all of us who suffer with depression.