Numbness.

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It is the sameness that drives me mad

The same day repeated that never varies

The persistent numbness that is my existence

Until feelings burst free leaving me in despair

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 I did not ask for this, it isn’t what I wanted

So many times I try to break free from my past

A never-ending nightmare that in my head replays

No matter how many times I try to escape it.

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Don’t give me any of your dime store advice

If I could have chosen, don’t you think I would have?

I didn’t ask for the cards that have been dealt me

Your lack of compassion does nothing to save me

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 If gazing at the sunset; contemplating life

Was enough to change me, I’d never stop

If I could think those positive thoughts

Then I would do so all day long

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 Just because someone does not comprehend

Does not mean that it does not exist

So, please stop talking like you know

Because, you do not understand at all.

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2 Comments

  1. I have to say , this was beautiful, Numbness, so much feeling, so much pain, feeling isolated and misunderstood, alone while hurting, you expressed so much how I feel, I cried, not so much for myself, but for you who wrote this. I am not good with words, I want you to know that I care, I may not understand all you go through, but I know, I also have been there.
    M

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