I have not been writing on this blog so much of late, mostly because I have been focusing on my silly blog.
I have been very stable the last few months, but yesterday it crashed in on me.
I have no idea how or why, but suddenly without warning I was so depressed I did not want to get out of bed.
This always scares me ,as my biggest fear is going back to the dark place and not coming back out again.
I gave myself the permission to be depressed, I knew that I was not able to fight it.
Too worn down to even try.
So, I slept and I cried.
And today I feel better and am willing to fight again.
Always glad when the storm passes, it shows me that I will get depressed, but at least I don’t live there anymore.
Even being an occasional visitor sucks, I must admit, but the alternative is worse.
I feel fine today and fine is okay when that is all you can manage.