Sometimes you fall back into old patterns.
I suppose, the important thing is to recognize it when it happens.
I have been on a quest to not be what I think others want me to be, but instead to just be me.
At times I fall back into the role of pleaser.
Now, don’t get me wrong nothing wrong with pleasing or being pleasant.
When it is at the expense of my own well-being, then it is a problem.
I try too hard and that is sorta like being a fake and who wants to be a fake?
I am still, after all these years, trying to discover just who I am.
I want to discover and be the person I was meant to be.
I realize this takes some effort, but why am I trying so hard?
Because, somewhere deep inside, I still want to please.
It always surprises me, that when I quit trying so hard, that people respond so much more favorably.
My new goal is to accept the fact that I cannot please everyone and any effort to do so is wasted effort.
Effort that would be so much more productive if placed somewhere else.